what is done can't be undone

yea...what is done cant be undone no matter how i regret it.i shouldnt have done that @ 1st place.I AM REALLY SORRY!!!~

1. How do you feel right now?

** CUAK..aq takut gile..risau sme ade..

2. Why is that?

** sb Azra.he is damn mad @ me right now.actually die da xmara da.tp sbb "Pamela" ni xnak call n explain kat die.plus, die x nak bg apology letter tu.

3. Explain further.

** aq mintak num Azra @ Pamela.which die keje @ 1 of d bank in M'sia.tp bkn 2 je aq mintak.aq mintak birthdate & add skali.if from Teleco, die x mara sgt.BUT its from a bank.thats y die mara.die x mara aq sgt @ 1st place ble aq bgtau die.yg buat die lg membara kemarahan die sb Pamela xnak call n bg apology letter.tu yg Azra tgh consider nak buat report @ BNM.that is damn serious..FUCKING serious!!!

4. Then..

** arini Azra g jmpa kwn die who works @ BNM.bhgn security tu.Azra kata die x kan report if Pamela datang jumpa die.face to face since susah sgt nak nak call.plus d apology letter kena ade gk.

5. What's your action?

** convince Pamela utk jmpa Azra.nak ke die?die tu BZ til ahad ni..sme ni salah aq..

6. What if Azra proceed with the report?

** m DEAD!!!SUPER dead!!Pamela will be mad @ me like hell..FUCKING angry!!i should have wait utk Azra bg aq his number.

7. What's your wish?

** i wish..Azra will consider..reconsider or wateva not to proceed with d report.i wish he'll give me & Pamela a 2nd chance.lesson learned.

8. Anything else?

** i've realize that i dont love him.i just admire & like him as a friend.not more than that.i still want to be his friend.i know ive betray him..ive hurt him badly..i just ask for a 2nd chance.

9. If there's no 2nd chance?

** i've lost a good friend.he is.even he never admit that he's nice.to me..he is.he's not that cruel.he's not a monster.he may be a very bad ptner BUT he is a good friend.someone that i can call a friend.m gonna miss him.

10. Last word:

** Azra, i really hope u'll consider d report.i am so sorry.i promise..i wont betray or hurt u anymore.can we start from the beginning?i love u as a friend.tq so much for what u've done..to all of ur advice.ur fun.. O_o i hope we can still be friends.

GAMBLE trip!!!

ni pix kitorang @ Kuala Woh, Tapah jalan menghala ke Cameron Highland ikut jalan lama.memang sangat happy masa ni.aktiviti sengal seperti : go with the flow (ikut je arus sungai then patah balik lawan arus,sgt penat) main sabun (tu yg jd rambut PUNK sme skali..except aq) syampu rambut beramai2 (first ina buat aq dulu then aq buat kat ary, apik & aie..hehe best siap urut2 lagi.dak 2 eko jantan ni gersang abis da.nasib xde yg menegak) makan roti tepi sungai O_o best sgt. yg klakanye masa ina tgh syampu rambut dak2 ni,ary jd tukang pegang rokok utk ina..rokok tu patah.hakhakhak...n malam yg on d way gi ke Lumut,diorang ni siap buat lagu lagi..kutuk aq dgn ina..ceit O_o

betapa gumbira nye ati kami dapat jalan2 mcm ni..lepaskan segala yg terbuku dalam ati.ilang sedikit beban yg ditanggung selama ni menyesakkan dada.kegumbiraan tu teserlah diwajah kami walaupun kepenatan kerna tak tidur selama 2 hari. :) trip yg tak dirancang ni lah yg paling bahagia..paling berharga..berbaloi..!!aq sayang kawan2 aq..aq sayang adik2 aq apik & aie walaupun diorang ni banyak cakap..sengal & x serius asik main je..tapi diorang baik.terutama apik walaupun mcm kanak2 riang je bile dgn die..ngade2..gedik terlebih..hehehe tapi aq sayang die. :) TQ ary sb sanggup datang dari jauh..

terlalu banyak yg ingin dikongsikan di sini.tetapi tidak dapat diluahkan dgn kata2..trip ni telah membuka mata aq tentang kehidupan.kehidupan orang lain O_o mengenal erti persahabatan dgn lebih mendalam.mengenal diri sendiri dgn lebih pengertian.flash back semua yg pernah terjadi pada hidup aq tidak kira yg baik atau yg buruk.air mata mengalir disaat sang matahari mengucapkan selamat pagi kepada hamba2 Allah..disaat ombak memukul pantai.. O_o burung2 mencari rezeki di hari ahad yg indah. tiada apa yg lebih indah dr ciptaan tuhan yg sangat agung.tiada tandingan nya..aq bersyukur dikurniakan tubuh dan sifat yg sempurna.mampu melihat merasa dan menghargai ciptaan agung.. O_o

walaupun trip ni singkat - 2 hari, tapi sungguh padat.I'M GONNA MISS YOU GUYS!!!~ FRIENDS FOREVER!!~

C.O.M.P.L.I.C.A.T.E.D!!~

various feelings ait now..!!!~

aq happy sgt sb akhirnye afta pujuk Azra jumpa..die agree jumpa aq kat gym wangsa maju sec. 2..hermm x kisah la org nak kata aq perigi cr timba ke ape ke..lantak la..yq penting die setuju.aq ade gtau die aq suka kat die..die gelak kat aq.die kata xmungkin aq fall for him coz he's evil.99.9% evil.hermm dunno la.tapi kan actually aq segan nak jumpa die..y??!!~

1. sbb rambut aq sgt messy.so mcm selekeh jela kan nak jumpa org.bg aq 1st impression sgt penting.that's when people judge u.

2. dunno what to wear..eventho gobok aq tu penuh dgn baju.

3. abt conversation..nak ckp ape??!!~ die lagi pandai dr aq..em cm lagi kecik je rasenye..

aq rasa cam nak gi kedai beli wig satu ke..sewa ke..kejap je..hehehe but actually mcm nak pakai sementara je..sementara rambut ni tgh messy.huhuhu so dgn rambut yg serabai ni kan..haish..serabut fk..erm tapi agak2 kalo x sempat nak g cari wig..aq pegi jer kat salon mana2 suh cuci n blow rambut agar nampak lebih kemas.let d professional do their job. aq mmg pistoff gle dgn hairstylist giler bongok ni..xphm ke aq ckp nk trim jer tp die g potong pendek tros..ampeh btol..haish tension..dulu aq potong rmbt kat situ ok jer.herm agaknye die gado dgn gf die kot kat situ.heeee aq lak jd mangsa. :(

aq rindu nak main go-kart laa..tapi xde teman huhuhu..herm nampak gayanye kena g sorang je la..sedey jer.. :(

ermm....arini da start 1 paper exam.QMT 320.boleh la..xde la susah sangat.ok la boleh jawab. mcm jiwa kacau lak dok kat sini.help!!~

bosan kot.line pun x bape ok kat sini.nak kata kat tpt jin bertendang..xdela sgt sbb aq x rasa jin bertendang kat padang jarak padang terkukur..xsempat wat action 18SG da jato tersungkur..

aritu kan..aq g tengok ^he's just not into you^ dgn ary.hermm abt signal la ape la..entahlah aq pun x tau nak letak kan diri aq..maksud aq situasi aq dgn Azra ni yg mana satu.aq kan..ko tau la kan aq kan bukan nye "straight".aq kan da bengkok2 mcm jalan nak pegi Fraser Hill tu.so aq kan actually takut nak berchenta dgn guys ni.herm aq takut jadi mcm ape yg pernah jd kat aq.pengalaman aq dgn guys xla baik sgt.so aq xnak la nnt berchenta bagai rak kat dapoq uma aq tu..pastu kena makan dek anai2...lesap la kan...ape la..

n then...cane ko tau "he's the right man for you?" "he loves you..appreciate u n wont dissapoint u" hermm kirenye jodoh utk selama2nye..aq pun xpaham knp aq harus fk bnda2 mcm ni pada waktu sekarang??adakah aq sudah menjangkau usia yg matang utk memikirkan isu yg agak berat ini?atau sudah tiba masanya untuk aq mengubah hala tuju hidup aq??jalan yg dulu simpang siur da bertemu dgn jalan yg lurus?

aq kan agak trauma dgn lelaki..tapi aq x takut berkawan..tapi aq takut gak bile da kawin..lelaki tu x mcm yg aq kenal die b4 kawin.berubah ke..jadi kaki pukul ke..kaki pompuan ke..ape ke..haish..entahla weii..seryes aq bingung.aq sedar aq x sepatutnye fk hal2 sebegini rupa tapi kan...dah terfk gak nak wat cane lagi..

OH LELAKI...mengapa kau menyulitkan lagi hidup aq yang tidaklah seberapa tenang..?mengapa kau menambah lagi badai di hati ini??**betul ke ape yg aq tulis ni?hentam jela janji aq phm.hehe ade ke lelaki yg akan menyayangi dan menyintai aq sepenuh jiwa?menerima aq apa adanye?menyayangi dan menyintai kelemahan aq??mampu menerima kisah silam serta kisah gelap hidup aq ini?

tapi..layak ke aq nak demand2 mcm ni?aq bukan la seorang hamba Allah yang baik..bukan ke perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik...??

Ya Allah,aq mohon padamu semoga jodoh yg telah kau tetapkan untuk aq adalah yang terbaik untuk aq..yang mampu membimbing aq ke jalan Mu kerna aq ingin hidup bahagia dunia dan akhirat.Hanya kau yg Maha Mengetahui.aq tau aq x layak untuk syurga Mu yg indah itu tapi aq juga tak sanggup ke neraka jahanam itu.sesungguhnya aq pasti tidak mampu menempuh kehidupan di neraka jahanam itu kerna aq seorang hambaMu yg lemah.Amin.

:( sgt sedey..jiwa kacau

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